forgiven

I don’t know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable.

But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, ‘well, if I’d known better I’d have done better,’ that’s all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, ‘I’m sorry,’ and then you say to yourself, ‘I’m sorry.’ If we all hold on to the mistake, we can’t see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can’t see what we’re capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one’s own self.

I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that’s rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don’t have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.

back to basics

A new month equals to a new hair colour.

Last weekend,I went to the nearest Watsons & got myself my new addiction- Liese Bubble Hair Colour. I'm not addicted to hair colouring but I love playing with the bubbles on my hair. Its so fun! I love massaging the soft spongy bubbles on my head .

So I said adios to my fuglay bleached yellow hair & got back to my original hair colour with a pack of platinum hair colour by Liese.

I didn't take any pictures of my dying my hair but here is the end result:

Ta-da!

In case you're wondering which contact lens I'm wearing,

Its the DollyEye Icy Grey.

RM40 per pair. Email to lovelygwendolly@gmail.com for more details.

This Month

Here we go again! So, lately so much have been going on, from home to work & its March already?The beginning of this month will give me some time to breathe and let you in. But before we go into the extra long drama, I wanted to share some other stuff with you.

A trip that I can't hardly wait on the 13th- a vacay to beautiful Bangkok! Its going be so awesome & I actually made some space in my closet for new clothes,bags & shoes! I'm going to sell my old clothes at the UCSI flea market this coming weekend ;) and if its not bought, I will donate my clothes to the charity .

Do come over to my booth where I will sell stuff from my e-boutique as well.

Now hot gossip can REALLY be ugly.The best revenge is to be successful. It is to stay strong and move forward in life; never stopping, never giving up, never take a step back. Sorry girls, try harder next time to bring my business down ;) What you did was totally bitchy & uncalled for but it made me much more stronger. So i said thanks?

Instagram

I've been taking a lot of photos on Instagram lately , a photo sharing app for iPhone and I'm addicted! I think I've become a little bit obsessed with it & It's kinda like Twitter where you can follow anyone you like, but instead of a feed of 140 character sentences, you get photo feeds! You can like and comment other people's photos as well.

Just hit the share button & your Instagram photos will be on your Twitter and Facebook with a caption .You can also add filters and borders to your photos to make it look really retro like those pictures on Tumblr.It's awesome! There are more than 10 filters and my current faves are Amaro, Earlybird and Valencia.

Here are some of my favorite shots taken using Instagram. Most of the photos I took are objects of my affection of course: my pets and yes, food!

Valentine's Day with Mr Fart Rainbows

Valentine's Day this year was awesome. Spending it with the guy who has been emotionally

supportive through the turbulences in my life even made it much more worthwhile.

I know he tried so hard everyday to turn the frown on my face into a smile but sometimes,

I'm such a wreck.I can laugh one minute & cry the next. Stressing over small stuff like the world gonna end.But then again, maybe its because I'm just being a girl? lol.

Anyways, he wanted to bring me out for dinner but then I'm on this really strict diet & I can only eat during lunch. Changing the patterns of my eating habits had taken its toll on me. The first week was SO difficult but its been a month now & I'm gradually picking up the pace & learning many new ways for a healthier balanced diet. Plus my wellness coach will FREAK out if my weight does not reach its goal by the end of the week. I'm so gonna get my weight back on track ;)

I plan to lose weight not for my own self image but for my own health. I will definitely blog more about my weight loss journey soon. I've also been busting my ass doing cardio 60mins everyday & the hard work paid off. 2kgs gone just like that. I plan to stick to it & lets see how it will turn out to be by the middle of this year :)

Mr Fart Rainbows & Mrs Fart Fairy Dust

We had a simple Valentine's day lunch at Four Points hotel

Cold dish for starters

Then we proceed to the real deal. Roasted lamb, baked potatoes, baked macaroni & a slice of pizza margarita.

Next up is dessert! I was stuffed but the desserts look too good to be true

Boyf had another serving of pizza

So sinful . Oh boy! I was feeling really guilty after I indulge in these sweet bites.

But he said its only for a day plus I've been running for an hour that morning before lunch.

You can imagine how hungry I was before we got there & how full I am after we ate!!

*burp!

After lunch we chill by the poolside and had a few round of drinks

My world. My everything

I love you so much baby! Mwwahhh!~

After we left Four Points, while driving, he had his hand somewhere at the back seat

& gave me these....

I was so happy & hugged him so tight he almost lost control of the steering wheel :D

Totally perfect! Just what I need- a make up set :))

Baby knows how much I love make up !

A few years ago,he reluctantly let me put make up on his face as an experimental model. I was just pretending to 'test' the make up but I was actually playing the fool hahaha!

We both had stomach ache after that cos we laughed so hard.It was so funny seeing him with make up!

The make up set comes with a cosmetic case by Michael Kors

I love neutral colours . This palette is simply perfect for everyday use ;)

I actually told him not to get me any flowers cos I don't want to make the florists out there any richer. But he said, what is valentine's without a rose?

I got my baby a pair of Nike Dunk Skunk!!

The smashed skunk in the shoes

The thing that intrigued my bf for these shoes is the herb pocket inside the shoes.

I found it cute . Really, a small pocket in a shoe? Adorable!!

We fight like married couple,talk like best friends,flirt like first loves,protect each other like siblings & oh, we both fart rainbows:)

Love is in Ze Air

February fourteen is only tomorrow! The day of love/hate .

Forever Aloners out there, I feel you! Been there, done that previous years. But there's nothing wrong about not having a date .It not the end of the world!

What's special about Valentine's Day? Personally, for me it means a day of showing our affection

for our loved ones-families, friends & spouses.

When I was younger, I used to exchange gifts with my girl friends in high school. I never had a boyfriend during high school ^^ I'm so much of a loner back then. lol!

This year is rather meaningful. Valentine's will be spent with the guy I'm with for four years :)

This Mariah Carey song titled "Joy Ride" is exactly how I feel about him. Here goes!

Baby don't you ever let go

i got a feeling that my heart's never known,

I found love.

Tender kisses and I'm floating on air

You can have me anytime, anywhere

When you need me I will always be there

And our love was heaven sent

From the day we first met

We've got something they can't touch

We found love

Loving you is like a taste of heaven

Wanna gaze into your eyes forever

Run away and spend our lives together

I don't need anything

When you're here next to me

Nobody in this whole wide world

Could ever replace you in my eyes

We found paradise

Forever you and I

Our love goes round and round

On a joy ride

with you baby.

and to end this post, I wanna present you, these two love animals

My dear Angel & Kitty ;)

Febuary already?

Happy FEBulous Ya'll! After the New Lunar year, its a new start! Allowing the water dragon to sail through. So far, thou hast no complains. Beginning to like the Ongs that have been flowing my way.

Apart from all the crazy excessive food and drinks consumption, I manage to make time to visit some long lost friends and family, gambled abit, loose some, win some and got the whole week off from work. My shop was closed for three days . This year CNY was ze best! Told ya i get hype whenever the festive season approaches.. Enjoy!

Went to my grandma's place for CNY dinner & that was her expression when I asked for a bigger ang pow.

LOL!! She knew I'm just kidding around.

The next day was a blast, hanging out with friends during CNY open house.

My girlie girls!

So, i got on the scale and turned out not much weigh was gain upon the cny season. Happy much. Spend a whole load of quality time with the many love ones, shop and shopped more. 

As embarrassing as it sounds, I got my first ever running shoes!! and of course I got my platform shoes from Aldo all the way from SG, whoop!

Went to The Spring with the boyf & got ze best perfume from L'Occitane & some toys to play with at Sasa.

I was giving Japanese cosmetics a try ;) 

Over the weekend, had some fun in the sun with him & as usual we stuff ourselves with food.

Nothing like great company, I think sometimes you need to pull away/detached from people very close to you to reconnect with yourself. No, its not crap, think about it. Friendships that are ruined & its just too much.
So much have been going on lately and all this negative vibes/aura surrounding me is just not what i need to be around like annoying. Im not going to repeat my sad never ending dramas so i'll fast forward to the outcomes, I fixed my mess, gathered myself together and things have been better.

Sometimes, the smallest things can save your life, no, not a pill. :)